Which Way?

I've not been blogging much lately because of the confidentiality of the burdens I'm carrying. It concerns the lives of others and I can't simply blurt it all out in my blog, although the people concern will most probably never get to read it...

This morning, I've spent some time reading other Christian blogs and these brothers and sisters in Christ have certainly blessed me one way or another, but I'm too tired to link their blogs here to acknowledge what a blessing they've been to me, may be another time.

Things they have said that encouraged me; that we must continue to share Christ, that we should not be afraid of evil forces... my mind is so muddled now that I can't recall all, but the essence is, fight the good fight...

As children of God, you and I are not alone. We have God on our side and we have a whole horde of brothers and sisters all over the world living their lives out for God. This is an encouraging thought.

In my own ministry, where just a few weeks' back I thought I knew exactly what God had wanted me to do, NOW, I'm lost again! I'm lost because I've discovered that many things that had happened in the past weren't what I'd thought them to be! I'm referring to the facades that men put up, truths half told (which didn't form the whole picture) and I felt I've been misled by the very people I've helped. I've analysed the situations over and over, and I own up to the fact that it takes two hands and sometimes more than two hands to clap. I've done wrong in a number of situations based on my failure to comprehend the entire situation.

I've lost trust in some people. I still love them. I was weary and now I'm also wary. I need wisdom. My desire is to continue to do God's will, so please pray for me for the courage to continue and discernment to know what to do next. Thank you.


RCUBEs said...

Praying for His divine wisdom and gift of discernment to cover you. Yes, it's not easy in this journey we're all in. But He promised us that He will never leave us nor forsake us. God bless you and protect you.

MTJ said...

Hi Jane,

As I read your post this morning I thought about the many times you've given me encouragement and inspiration. I want to share a scripture with you my sister,
"And let us not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we shall reap if we do not grow weary."

I am praying for you as you have asked.

God be with you.


Jane said...

Thank you RCubes and MTJ! :)

Nate Cook said...

may you be blessed and my the Lord keep you and give you wisdom in what you should do next. as i am sure that you know the scriptures let them be a blessing to you again.

2 Corinthians 4:8-9, 16-18
"8 We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; 9 persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed—....16 Therefore we do not lose heart. Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day. 17 For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, 18 while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal."

Jane said...

Thank you Nate for the reminder of God's words. :)

Merana Leigh said...

In reading this post, I've been riveted by you pouring out your "soul-hurt". I KNOW what it is to not trust. And I KNOW what it is to reprove & doubt myself because of decisions I've made not really being the best ones. But, I share with you now what the Lord has brought me to understand. In EVERYONE you meet, ask Him to reveal the true "essence of their character" right away to you and to guide your interaction with them. The Holy Spirit told me POINT BLANK...."if you're praying about a situation/person and you don't have a peace about it, it's NOT from me" and then He reminded me of John 14:27 "My peace I leave you". And I'll share the gems tucked away in Scripture that I live by & pray daily - Jeremiah 6:16 and Psalm 25:4-5. You truly are a blessing in all you are doing for others, even tho' it's clearly taking a toll on your heart. Hugs ~ Merana