Dealing With Disappointments

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Question: Why do I always feel disappointed with the people in my life? (Answer provided by Thelma Wells)


So Glad!

I'm so glad that I've found a new friend! I've never met her in person, but she showers me with love and genuine concern when she feels that I'm in trouble, well, blame my vague posts, I'm sorry that I've befuddled many people, misleading them into thinking that I'm in some kind of a depression or what for the sad tune to my recent posts... It's just that I can't share openly sometimes, you know, when you have to express something and you know so and so will be reading it?

Anyway, please meet my new friend, Analisa. :) We've been exchanging emails when she took it upon herself to see to it that I'm encouraged and that I get out of my 'depression'. What a sweet soul...

Get a feel of our blossoming friendship (hey, I 'lost' a friend, I've found another! Praise God) from the following excerpts from our emails:

Analisa: I am so glad you are not suffering from depression. I thought you were depressed because of your last few posts, with the exception of the one about the movie, you seemed to be struggling. But let God be right and every man be a liar I am happy very happy to be wrong.
I know God will bless you. Please keep me in your your prayers.

Me: Analisa, Thanks for being so concerned for me. I've prayed through my issues with ... I've prayed for God to help me re-focus on my work, He has asked me earlier to focus on building my sales now till He shows me the next step, His next assignment. I've also prayed that God would help me and remind me to be quick to hear, slow to speak and slow to anger. How's that? :) Oh, I'll be at another counter sale this weekend... I've prayed for two sales for myself. :)

For you, now I pray:"Dear Heavenly Father, I pray for Analisa, as she ponders about your work for her, please keep her healthy in mind, body and spirit. Please provide for her every need as she waits upon you for a new direction in her life. Father, reveal your plans to her and give her all resources; finance, guidance and helpers to come alongside to help her work out your plans. Keep her spiritually sharp, keep her heart soft to discern your leadings. God bless her abundantly, exceedingly in all that she can pray or ask for. I commit this dear sister into your hands, Lord, don't let the evil one/s touch her. May your peace and your joy be with her always. Thank you, in Jesus' name I pray. Amen."

Analisa: Jane, I am so happy for you. I stand with you for sucess in your sales. Thank you so much for your prayer. It made me cry because it was everything I needed. It lets me know how much God loves me when I find sisters in the faith like you.

Me: Analisa, I feel the same about you. You are a rare gem of a friend. Some people found a place in my heart and I showed them special concern, but they rarely reciprocate, not that I look for favours in return, but as a human being, it feels good that someone to whom you have extended friendship looks upon you as a friend. I've always have the experience of reaching out to people, but seldom the other way round, possibly because they see that all my needs are met. I therefore felt so touched that you bother to reach out to me after reading a few posts from my blog. I'm exceedingly glad that I can make a true friend through blogging! This is indeed another blessing from God. Let's keep in touch often and encourage one another in our walk with God, sister.

Oh, as for sales these 2 days, I'd made a sale, with another pending confirmation in a month's time. Thank you for your prayer support. You know, the comments you dropped at my blog and the encouragement you gave through emails, REALLY encourage me. Even my husband is glad you've told me that every door (or every person) I knock or approach, despite them turning me down, is actually leading me to the one who'll eventually buy from me. This is a very comforting thought, and it's true. Praise God for your word of wisdom, an apt word, a word in season. Thank you sis. Wow. :) It's 9.53 pm now, I shall sign off. Bless you sis.


So Sad

So sad... You spent time nurturing a friendship. The friendship is blossoming so beautifully. For a long while you've not found someone whom you can chat with, play and joke with so carelessly. And now she has to leave, and you may not see her ever again...

It's so sad...



How many times have you tried to do right and failed?
How many times have you thought that you could do a little better next time?
Then when you repeat your service, you find yourself tripping over the same weakness, well, may be doing slightly better than before, but still, tripping over the same area?

I'm so tired of myself.

But I did try my level best and I know God understood and accepted.
Still, I wish I could have done better.

Sometimes I really think that it's better not to do anything than to cause damage, cos I've seen and experienced myself the mistakes of others. How relationships and friendships could be marred because you sound the alarm.

Thank God for His mercy and patience towards us. I'm flawed but STILL in His service.


The Next Step

I badly need God to show me the next step...

The Gospel - the Movie

Let's see:
"Spend less time looking good, and more time being good!"
"There is no perfect Church, but a perfect God."

These wise statements come from this movie ...


Worship along with this song on holiness, righteousness, broken-ness ... and may the Lord bless you:


Awfully Weak

Dear Heavenly Father,

I feel awfully weak, awfully small, awfully unskilled, and exceedingly challenged to do the simple tasks you have laid before me that I want to cry.

I want to cry because I feel awfully incapable of doing the good works you've prepared for me to do. Yes, you've promised that your grace is sufficient for me, yet I feel so alone, so inadequate.

I'm surrounded by so great a witnesses, so many unbelievers with so much differences. Your Spirit has shed your love in me and through me for them, but I feel totally floored by the enormity and the accountability of the responsibility.

What if I say the wrong things to them? What if I fall before them? What if ... And what if I should fail in your mission?

Send me help Lord, I need someone to work alongside me and I'll do my best to do your Will. Send me help Lord, willing heart and willing hands. I also need the encouragement to continue.

I'm indeed small Lord, what the heck can I really do for you here? But you've your purpose. Now please calm me down, empower me just to do what I can do, and leave the rest to you. I can't work with such anxieties. Show me how to do what you've purposed for me to do, and how to trust in you.

So with my two fishes and 5 loaves of bread, I offer up my services to you, I offer my imperfect life and faith to you, Lord, use them for your glory, thy will be done.

Pray Lord, strengthen my faith and determination, increase yourself in my life that your purpose be achieved. Thank you for this life you've given me Lord, this journey you have led me thus far. I only pray Lord, that I can achieved something worthy for you before you call me home, I don't like to waste anything, particularly my life Lord.

This is all I could pray, and much more is there unspoken for I know not what and how to pray. Even my prayer is imperfect. Thank you Lord that you can do exceedingly abundantly in all that I ask for. So I commit all that I think and do into your hands, guide me and lead me, especially when I'm confused whether I'm doing the right thing or heading in the right direction. Guide me Lord.

In Jesus name I pray.



A Beautiful Chinese Song

This worship song is sung in Cantonese. It's beautiful, the lyrics, the music and the way it's sung. For those who understand this dialect, enjoy!


A True Friend

I'm quite disappointed with the attitude of some folks. This hymn, originally written by Joseph M. Scriven (1855) to comfort his mom who was across the sea from him in Ireland, pretty much sums up my feelings on life and friendship ...

What a Friend we have in Jesus, all our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilege to carry everything to God in prayer!
O what peace we often forfeit, O what needless pain we bear.
All because we do not carry everything to God in prayer.

Have we trials and temptations? Is there trouble anywhere?
We should never be discouraged; take it to the Lord in prayer.
Can we find a friend so faithful who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our every weakness; take it to the Lord in prayer.

Are we weak and heavy laden, cumbered with a load of care?
Precious Savior, still our refuge, take it to the Lord in prayer.
Do your friends despise, forsake thee? Take it to the Lord in prayer!
In His arms He'll take and shield thee; thou will find a solace there.

Blessed Savior, Thou hast promised Thou wilt all our burdens bear.
May we ever, Lord be bringing all to Thee in earnest prayer.
Soon in glory bright unclouded there will be no need for prayer.
Rapture, praise and endless worship will be our sweet portion there.

Matthew 28:20b - "And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age."


Be Nice!

Someone left this comment on Andrea's recent post Isn't this awesome? The topic discusses on how we should be nice towards others etc, and someone posts this comment, " I am going to be the bitter one in this. I love people to be nice to me, and I try hard to be, but if we are talking retailers that is their job!"

Well, I've been a sales person the third time round and I'm still mulling over this; how far should we go to be 'nice' to make a sale? Is the customer always right? How far are we to bent over backwards just to make a sale? Is being nice a professional trait or just a sales tactic? Can a sales person be just as honest and sincere as say, a teacher or a doctor? Do we have feelings?

The humiliation sales folks have to take day in and day out are beyond words. (Once I met someone by appointment and we spoke for about 45 minutes before he even bothered to look at me.) And some sales people just W'ONT TAKE IT! You can keep your money and I keep my pride, cos I won't starve if you don't buy!

For me, I'm sticking on to this job for awhile because it's great character training, cos I feel I've been so blessed all my life and come what 'sh**' in my job, I'll learn to take it. I want to see how far I can go and how much I can endure.