5.9.09

Awfully Weak

Dear Heavenly Father,

I feel awfully weak, awfully small, awfully unskilled, and exceedingly challenged to do the simple tasks you have laid before me that I want to cry.

I want to cry because I feel awfully incapable of doing the good works you've prepared for me to do. Yes, you've promised that your grace is sufficient for me, yet I feel so alone, so inadequate.

I'm surrounded by so great a witnesses, so many unbelievers with so much differences. Your Spirit has shed your love in me and through me for them, but I feel totally floored by the enormity and the accountability of the responsibility.

What if I say the wrong things to them? What if I fall before them? What if ... And what if I should fail in your mission?

Send me help Lord, I need someone to work alongside me and I'll do my best to do your Will. Send me help Lord, willing heart and willing hands. I also need the encouragement to continue.

I'm indeed small Lord, what the heck can I really do for you here? But you've your purpose. Now please calm me down, empower me just to do what I can do, and leave the rest to you. I can't work with such anxieties. Show me how to do what you've purposed for me to do, and how to trust in you.

So with my two fishes and 5 loaves of bread, I offer up my services to you, I offer my imperfect life and faith to you, Lord, use them for your glory, thy will be done.

Pray Lord, strengthen my faith and determination, increase yourself in my life that your purpose be achieved. Thank you for this life you've given me Lord, this journey you have led me thus far. I only pray Lord, that I can achieved something worthy for you before you call me home, I don't like to waste anything, particularly my life Lord.

This is all I could pray, and much more is there unspoken for I know not what and how to pray. Even my prayer is imperfect. Thank you Lord that you can do exceedingly abundantly in all that I ask for. So I commit all that I think and do into your hands, guide me and lead me, especially when I'm confused whether I'm doing the right thing or heading in the right direction. Guide me Lord.

In Jesus name I pray.

Amen.

7 comments:

AlpHa Buttonpusher said...

May the love hidden deep inside your heart find the love waiting in your dreams. May the laughter that you find in your tomorrow wipe away the pain you find in your yesterdays.

Pttyann said...

Beautiful prayer Jane,hang in there God will surely help you and as you grow you'll realize that he is there all of the time.Check your post date or is our time line that far different??? A go figure moment for real lol!
Love ya Jane and thanks for your visit.

Jane said...

Alpha and Pttyann, thanks for the encouragement, but in reality I feel more bewildered and confused than yesterday. I really don't know what to do. May be I'm just being too overwhelmed and too emotional... , but I'll hang in there. Thanks for your concern.

Analisa said...

I so understand where you are. I know the enemy tries hard to discourage us. Just remember it is not you, but God doing it through you. He is more than willing to carry the responsibility and the task. Take it one day at a time and keep a praise in your heart. I think praise is the number one thing to drive away discouragement. I also love to read and watch encouraging ministries like Joel Olsteen. It really helps when I feel overwhelmed.
You don't have to expect the world from yourself, you have to expect everything from God. The perfect God for an unperfect people.

You will be in my prayers.

Jane said...

Thanks Analisa, I know God will not put me where His grace can't sustain me. Everything takes time to build, thanks for your prayer. Even when no one is watching, God is and we should live for Him.

Lynn said...

God bless you, Jane. You have a beautiful witness and testimony. Our Lord is beside you every step of the way.

One thing that comforts me when I think my prayer is so very imperfect is that we have an advocate, Jesus Christ, with the Father, who makes our prayers perfect. :D

Jane said...

Thanks Lynn, Jesus is our advocate who'll intercede for us day and night, thanks for the reminder. :)