The situation in my ministry is getting complex and sticky. Human beings are complex and sticky. While I was comforted by God's words from 1Co 9:22-23 "To the weak I became weak, that I might gain the weak: I am become all things to all men, that I may by all means save some. And I do all things for the gospel’s sake, that I may be a joint partaker thereof ", I'm remorseful of the ways I'd responded to some of the things in the past...

I'm confused about what had happened and how much I'd contributed to the mess, and whether I was misled etc.. I really wish I can put an end to all these now. I really wish to just turn over whatever unfinished work to Christ and leave for a while. Anyway, I don't see myself helping out much nowadays, I've cracked my mind thinking of all sort of means and ways to help my charges in their work, but they are not progressing now, being beset by personal problems beyond them. I've counselled them to no avail. I feel so useless. Even bringing them to Church now seems riddled with new problems.

Everyone in my team is disheartened with poor business and broken relationships. I'm sick of it.

But my spouse interrupted my thoughts with this, "God's ways are higher than yours..." Yes, while I feel overwhelmed, I would like to affirm that God is sovereign and know my thoughts and ways. He has used me, a cracked pot in this ministry and knew the mistakes I would make, and still, He has chosen me to do it. I shall continue to believe that God is in control, that doors which He has opened, no man shall close. God will have His way, and God will take care of those He loves, and those He loves through me.


MTJ said...

Hi Jane,

I am praying for you my sister. Do no lose hope because things are not going the way you planned or expected. Frustration and expectations are interconnected.

Your husband is right when he says, "God's ways are higher than yours..."

My sister, we are often caught by surprise, but God never is...He knows all things

"The Lord will accomplish what concerns me..." (Psalm 138:8)

Do not faint or lose hope, the Lord is with you always.

Bless you.


Analisa said...

Jane I feel your heart in this post. I know how frustrating it can be to love people and want to help them. Your husbands words are full of wisdom. God's ways are best. You keep putting a burden on yourself yet God hasn't placed you. The enemy wants to distroy your peace. Don't let him. I have learned when I become frustrated and sick of it, it's because I am trying to change people and situations. ONLY GOD CAN DO THAT. You continue to walk out your days in love. Listen to the spirit of God and let him guide you. Remember it is God's ministry by his Holy Spirit. You can't be the Holy Spirit for them. If you feel you have done something wrong trying to do right, God will forgive you. So you are forgiven. Stop beating yourself up. I know how hard you have tried. Now let the one whose way is easy handle all these things. Every man has God's eye on him and God will lead the one's he has chosen. Relax dear sister, let the Lord's love for you take the pain away. Remember if ministry is a burden, we are doing it for the wrong reasons. Pull back let God minister to you in love. My heart and prayers are with you.

Anonymous said...

Judge not of men and things at first sight................................................

Jane said...

Thank you all for your words of encouragement, thank you MTJ, Analisa and 周俊许佳蓉安.